Monday, July 25, 2005

Well there goes the Mazda. Sold it yesterday afternoon and am now car-less. Was kinda sad to see it go, we've had that car since I was 5 years old...but all good things must come to an end and my dad had the final say!

It doesn't bother me too much not having a car since I'm perfectly used to good ol' public transport and secretly quite like it sometimes, but my dad is thinking of getting another car within the next week - yay! (2nd hand). Not entirely sure what I've done to deserve having a car bought for me, but I'm not going to protest! He basically wants one that won't need maintaining like the mazda did, so we'll see what I end up with....

Thursday, July 21, 2005

howdi all, whoever you may be.

Well now that's out of the was I'll get on with the post. I went down to the south west last week for my cousin's graduation from Exeter. The ceremony was really nice, and the undergrad accommodation we stayed in was hotel-like with amazing views (it is the 2nd highest building in Exeter) The town itself is really nice too. Also had dinner with my brother in Bristol after some shannagins with the hotel and the rooms and things, then spent the next day in Bath, a beautiful city; was good to talk to Rahul for a bit. Also saw Tom in Taunton since it was on my way to Bristol from Exeter...was good to see a uni friend and someone other than my family! (not that I mind seeing my family, just good to see other people!!)
I might have said this before, but the south-west really is beautiful. From what I've seen anyway, Bristol is an interesting and pretty city, Exeter has a certain charm and is similar to Taunton (though a little nicer). The countryside there is also lovely and there's lots of it! I think if I was to settle somewhere other than the north west, the south west might be it; in a village in the countryside or something :)

Speaking of countryside, also saw some of our lovely northern stuff too the other day. Me and my dad drove our family (minus mum) to Chatsworth Hall, a stately home, in Derbyshire...we need 2 cars cos there are 6 of us. It took about an hour and a half, and although I was driving I could see that the views were stunning.

All in all been quite nice :) Ok, gotta go...dog walking time!

Sunday, July 17, 2005

I just want to meet someone else. I've got people constantly talking about marriage and my looks and all things to do with that stuff at the moment. I have my own expectations of where I want to be at certain times in my life. Maybe it'll happen when I think it will, maybe it won't...but it makes it easier to be optimistic when there's at least someone who might be feasible around. I'm just lonely I guess; I'm after someone to make me laugh and feel good about myself. Somone I can share with who wants to listen and who I want to talk to.

Back to that again.
Remember me - The Zutons

Well we used to be the best of friends
And we used to hang around
Now I always see you and your new girlfriend
On the sunny side of town
Oh your body is the same and your face ain't changed
But your mind ain't where it's at
You're too busy hugging and a-kissing now
And for you that can't be bad

But I've made a deal with the clouds
Gonna turn that sun into rain
So you forget about your love
Come and see me again

Oh remember me I'm your best friend
And we don't talk no more
So if you're in the neighbourhood
Don't forget to knock on my door

Cause I've got to keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in

Now I stand upon your path
And I'm shouting up to you
Won't you come and give me a minute now
There's a message here for you

Me and a couple of old school friends
We're going out to drink
You can come along but leave your girl at home
It'll give you time to think

But you called at the last minute
Said that you were staying in
Well this is not a joke old friend
I'm a-getting sick of this

Oh remember me when she leaves you
And you come and knock on my door
Well I can nurse your broken heart
Cause that's what friends are for

Cause I've got to keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in
Gotta keep the feeling, keep the feeling in

Sunday, July 10, 2005



This was taken in May in the Cambridge Botanical gardens.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

My aunty and uncle are here from india at the moment. As I said in my last post, it's really good to see them again. My aunty and I were just chatting the other day, and she was telling me all about when my great grandma died. How my grandad reacted, what his sisters said, what mataji had wanted. I wanted to know all this stuff because my dad didn't really want to talk about it and so I didn't get to know about all the little things that happened. At the same time though it was hard to listen too, because it reminded me that I wasn't there, that I hadn't seen her for almost 2 years before she died.
My aunty also said that she didn't think my grandma had much time left, and that she was deterioating a lot. I hope she holds out until December. I want to see her at least once, need too. It's hard to imagine her not being around; at least my great grandma and grandad were in their 90's...it wasn't so unexpected, but I'm so much closer to her.

Anyway, I don't want to think about it too much. On a lighter note, my cousin is graduating next week which is great for him, and means we get a little trip down to exter. Also, I went swimming the other day...was so nice, I don't know why but I find it so relaxing. Also considering taking up yoga or meditation again. Yoga would probably be better, but it's finding the time. I guess I could just make time though... :)

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Well it's been a while since my last post. Had a brilliant mayweek (i know it's in june, but it's just of those Cambridge things I guess), nothing to really complain about there :) I do miss my uni friends.

Got home to find my house was a mess, couldn't even sleep in my own room on the 1st night and have only just been able to unpack my suitcase into my wardrobe. My beautiful stars that I spent so long putting on my ceiling were taken down and the ceiling painted over in my absence. Apparently the ceiling was dirty so it had to be painted. I didn't see it myself, but I suspect wiping it with a damp cloth may have cleaned it seeing as it wasn't so dirty as to not look white anymore. Can't see much difference myself. The skirting board had also been painted over in white...which looked ok, but i always really liked the shade of blue it had been. I managed to win that one and get it painted blue again, though the top railing has been left white (yes, i'm capabale of compromise ;))
The furniture in my room has also been moved around. My room looks a lot bigger now and the desk is at the window which is where I always wanted it in the first place. As ever, my mother has provided me with another box to put things in, this one might actually be useful though for once!

That's all the news about my house and room really. My aunty and uncle from India are coming on Monday with my cousin. Will be good to see them again, it's been over 2 years now. I miss my family in India a lot, it's something I wish I didn't have to get used to but that's life I guess. One thing I don't miss however is their judgemental attitude to looks sometimes. I'm not prepared for a running commentary on how much weight I've put on or anything to that effect. If they start, I'm ignoring it. I refuse to let it upset or affect me, I know what I look like, what I want to look like and what I can live with. Just need to keep that in mind. But like I say, it will be good to see them again.

What else? Mostly been wondering how I can get myself travelling or generally do something useful. I don't want to spend my summer at home, I want to see something or somewhere I've never seen before, even if it's only in England. Hopefully will get to see some of Cornwall this summer when my cousin graduates. Also my brother just got a job in Taunton so I'll be more likely to see that part of England for the next year hopefully.

ok, i think that will do for now. Might get back to my book. Have a long list of things I want to read this summer! Traa for now x