This is a beautiful song...

The Magic Numbers - I See You, You See Me.

I never wanted to love you, but that's okay
I always knew that you'd leave me anyway
But darling when I see you, you see me
I asked the boys if they'd let me go out and play
They always said that you'd hurt me anyway
But darling when I see you, I see me

And it's alright
I never thought I'd fall in love again
It's alright
I look to you as my only friend
It's alright
I never thought that I could feel there's something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

I never thought that you wanted for me to stay
So I left you with the girls that came your way
And darling when I see you I see me

I often thought that you'd be better off left alone
Well throw a circle round and ... with broken bones
But darling when I see you, I see me

It's alright
I never thought I'd fall in love again
It's alright
I look to you as my only friend
It's alright
I never thought that I could feel there's something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

You always looked like you had something else on your mind
When I try to tell you, you tell me "nevermind"
But darling when I see you, you see me

I wanna tell you that I never loved anyone else
You wanna tell me that you're better off by yourself
But darling when I see you, you see me

Oooh, oo-oo-oooh...
This is not what I'm like, this is not what I do
This is not what I'm like, I think I'm falling for you

I never thought
This is not what I'm like, this is not what I do
I never thought
This is not what I'm like, I think I'm falling for you

I never thought that I could feel there's something
Rising, rising in my veins

And it looks like I feel there's something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

Well the headcold I had was apparently sinusitis according to my dad - he said it wouldn't go away for a while though. It has gone, and I feel much better...but I still don't feel quite myself. I'm not ill, but I am getting lightheaded every now and again..I feel a removed from all of this sometimes, especially when my head is like that. It's a bit unsettling, wish it would go away.

Just came back from India a few days ago...had a great time, was so good to see my family, especially my grandparents. Spent a lot of the time rushing around trying to visit various members of the family, but went to a couple of new places (Patiala and Chandigarh), both of which were lovely places - especially Chandigarh. The only downside was that it was freezing! But i'm used to the cold so I guess it wasn't that bad!

Ok, that's it for now, may write more later if I feel like it - feeling a bit crap right now, have got some kind of head cold! Off to uni again on the weekend, it's so like leading a double life, it's bizarre.

traa x

This struck me when I saw this in a shop the other day:

"There is no way to peace, peace is the way"

If only we could all remember that.

Where to begin?

I've actually forgotten most of the stuff I wanted to write about (see last post), but one thing I do remember from a month ago:

As part of my course, I often end up analysing or at least thinking about the basics of human nature, why we act how we do etc. Somehow I got thinking about territoriality, how it runs through our whole lives.

Starting from individual people - everyone has their own idea of personal space that generally they don't like being invaded. 'This much area around me is mine'. It's our own piece of territory that we carry around with us.

Next we can go to our homes. Inside our homes, most of us have our own bedroom that we make ours, or at least our own bed and space around it. The house itself has boundaries, that either stop at the front door if its an apartment, or extend to the garden or driveway for a house. If anyone intrudes into the building without our permission, we feel uneasy, even violated.

Beyond this, we have streets and neighbourhoods and villages and towns. While we may not defend them as fiercely (through practicallity maybe?), we consider them as our home turf, our shared territory. This even extends into north and south (when considering England anyway).

Even above this level though is the fiece protection of countries. The existence of countries at all shows how territorial we are. Countries after all, when it comes down to it, are just lines drawn on a map. These boundaries on the ground are patrolled and monitored...just incase someone we don't want tries to get in. Thousands of wars and battles have been fought over territory - the more territory you have, the more people and resources you have under your control, the more power you have.

Buzz Aldrin (and one of the 'Space Cadets' on channel 4's latest reality TV show) said that the earth looked so peaceful from space, it was hard to imagine any wars going on down there. I guess from space the continents just look like giant landmasses, all merging into one another or into the sea, with the view being interuppted by swirling clouds. I guess it all seems kind of pointless from up there, squabbling over who can and can't come into this bit of land, and who's patch of land it is.



Don't get me wrong, I think a degree of territorialism is neccessary - I am human after all, but I think perspective is needed sometimes.

Had quite a few things I've wanted to put on here lately, but just haven't got round to it. I want to write them properly though so I won't do it now...basically a long winded way of saying I'm still here! (Probably to no-one, but just in case it's not just me reading this!)

Why do people say things they don't mean? All it does is hurt people.

This is a repetition of what I've said before, but I just found someone who agrees and said it much more concisely :)

"It is not a bad idea to get in the habit of writing down one's thoughts. It saves one having to bother anyone else with them."
-Isabel Colegate

I was reminded of this in a lecture yesterday - does anyone else think it's amazing that elephants can swim? and not only that, swim accross oceans?

This woman did such a simple but brave thing. It impressed me when I learnt about it in history a-level, and it seems it still does. I'm glad her funeral was a celebration and not a sad event - it appears fitting in my mind.
Also - as a side note - hearing Arethra Franklin in that setting must have been incredible.

It's not really important now, obviously Rosa Parks was the important one in this, but does anyone ever wonder what happened to the man she refused to give up her seat to? If he's alive, I wonder how he feels about the whole thing. Was he racist, or was he just a product of his society? taking advantage of the rules that favoured him (not that that makes it better). Did he or would he have attended her funeral?

As I say, it's kind of irrelevant now, but it would be interesting to know.