"There are two ways of exerting one's strength: one is pushing down, the other is pulling up."
- Booker T. Washington

I like that :-)

my feet are cold.

Fucking essays.

Mad World -Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
’cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

Have you ever read the lyrics to a song and felt as if they must have been thinking of you when they wrote parts of it?

I watched my 1st full rugby match today after having the rules explained.......and what a good choice of match it was..........
ENGLAND WON THE WORLD CUP!!! :-D

Sometimes i become so aware of all the sadness in the world that I can't bear to think of it.
There's so many things I want to be able to change, strangers I want to understand, people I want to console.
But I can't
So I think about something else.

Is that wrong?

Jack Vettriano has the ability to make you feel nostalgic for things you never actually experienced in the first place -Tim Rice

Gotta say i'm inclined to agree, he's one of my favourite artists......

Are you someone to make it all go away?
to protect me from the cruel harsh world,
wrap me up in your skin.
Take me to a place where i can hide
i tried the place where everyone else seems to go,
i didn't fit in there
so im finding my own secret place.
come with me?

If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion. - Dalai Lama

Sounds like a good plan to me :-)

I will become good at pool dammit.

must....sleep........

I have nothing to say anymore. I'm empty.
Is there anything to fill?
I need some magic, call up the spirits.
Did you train the light that follows your words?
Or is it a process of diffusion, balancing out the darkness before them.
Does the beat of your step echo in your dreams?
Promise to me lend me your angels.
Do you feel the same as the people you touch?
Don't read my confused eyes.
I'm empty. I have nothing of worth to say to you.

I'm exhausted.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH!!!
Have a great day.....sorry if the card arrives late!
loads of love xxx

Fire drills at 7.30am are a bad thing on any day, but especially so when its on my lie-in day...my 1st lecture wasn't until 12pm!!
Anyhoo, guess it made me do some work.

ok, cambridge are just taking the piss now.
I have an essay for tomorrow, a supervision and a seminar on thursday and an essay for friday. I also have 2 more essays due in for next week and 2 more supervisions. Plus lectures.
Somehow i also have to fit my social life into all this.
If anyone was ever gonna teach me to be organised, then this is probably the best way to do it. Load me with so much work that if i don't spend all my spare time working then i'll miss all my deadlines spectacularly.

But still i'm sitting here posting on my blog.......will i ever learn??

What is it that you're so afraid of?

Its our fears that control our lives in the end.
Fear of embaracment, of loosing somone, something, our dignity, of being alone, of being wrong, of being hurt.

Surely its these fears that stop us from doing things which otherwise we would do..... Is overcoming our fears one of the the secrets to leading the fullest life possible?
The only flaw is that we need fear for survival. Fight or flight. If you fear nothing, not even death, then your full life may be very short.

hmm. One to ponder over maybe.

Rarrr!!

That's all I have to say about that.