Wednesday, January 28, 2004

I think there are 3 in things in this country that make people smile at strangers
1. Love
2. Christmas
3. Snow!

:-D
IT SNOWED!! :-D

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Every now and again, i wake up and feel as though i'm joining in the same game as everyone else, but the rules i know are slightly different. I play their game because that's what everyone else seems to know. Secretly I prefer my version, my rules, but no-one else seems to enjoy it as much as i do; I can only play my game alone. They don't want to abandon the game they know,the tricks they've learnt, the other people playing it.
So I continue to play by other people's rules, playing out alternative versions in my head, hoping that one day, someone will want to join in.

Friday, January 23, 2004

In order to understand someone i think you have to let yourself think the way they do. Even if its just for a converstaion or even a few minutes. If you allow yourself to follow the same thought processes as they do, suddenly their view of the world becomes clearer to you, even if you don't agree with it.

Another quote, but couldn't ignore this one :-)

Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities. The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence.
-Albert Einstein

Thursday, January 22, 2004

There are people whom one loves immediately and forever. Even to know they are alive in the world with one is quite enough.-Nancy Spain

How true.
I don't understand the world. There are too many explanations, too many contradictions and compliments at the same time.
Its like a jigsaw where the pieces fit together, but the resulting picture doesn't make sense.
Haven't met anyone who's convinced me to understand the picture the way they do yet, but maybe its not supposed to make sense, does it need to?

I don't know. Do you?

Monday, January 19, 2004

Your dreams are few and far between
passing in and out of shadows that dim their sheen.
Your swirling knowledge is true but frail
leaving your faith to grasp at its tail.

The wings of your angels are broken and torn
they cannot save you, their legs are worn.
So dust off your smile, cloud this mysterious world,
forget your lost faith and use your fear as gold.

Raise your head, and open your ears, your eyes
Obeserve the people around you, have you noticed their cries?
Feel the storms and the calm, use your tears to relieve.
Just let them know you’re here, you don’t have to believe.


and in the words of Girls Aloud (sorry it had to be them), I'd like to say,
"I don't believe in romeos or heroes anymore"

Friday, January 16, 2004

What is it that you want from me?

Well tough shit, you get what you're given. Deal with it.

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

I want to live by the sea at some point in my life, with a balcony to stand on and feel the cool sea breeze blow accross my skin.

Monday, January 12, 2004

The world is such a sad and depressing place when you think of all the troubles and seemingly impossible problems humans and nature cause. But every now and again you meet, or hear of people who seem to be doing things right.......little rays of light and hope in a dark and confused place.

Sunday, January 11, 2004

Thursday, January 08, 2004

Was woken up by a storm opening and closing my bedroom door this morning (no i don't live in a barn, my window was open). Everything's gone peaceful now, the sky is calm....reminds me of a Turner painting :-)

Wednesday, January 07, 2004

Sometimes I picture it like water dripping out of a barrell. No matter how much I turn the tap, it won't stop leaking. Sometimes more, sometimes less, but its always seeping out.
I thought I'd gradually refilled the barrell, fixed the tap...I had. But one unexplainable action, a mistake I suppose, and now the tap is broken again. I know how to fix it but somehow it doesn't seem so easy this time.
Meanwhile, the water drips.

What is it that I talk of?
Self esteem.
Sometimes I wish I could say something to someone, or do something just to see how they react.....then undo it if it goes badly.

I need magical powers. (or maybe that should be want)

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Other people really do suck sometimes. It would be much easier for everyone if we were all happy living as a loners.
But unfortunately, we're social animals... and so it would seem that other people are essential to our happiness. Its just a matter of finding which people i think.

Sunday, January 04, 2004

Bryan Adams - Inside Out

The biggest lie you ever told - your deepest fear 'bout
Growin' old
The longest night you ever spent - the angriest letter you
Never sent
The boy you swore you'd never leave - the one you kissed on
New years's eve
The sweetest dream you had last night - your darkest hour,
Your hardest fight

I wanna know you - like i know myself
I'm waitin' for you - there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby - scream and shout
I want to know you - inside out
I wanna dig down deep - i wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - i wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - i wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - i wanna know you inside out

The saddest song you ever heard - the most you said with
Just one word
The loneliest prayer you ever prayed - the truest vow you
Ever made
What makes you laught, what makes you cry
What makes you mad, what gets you by
You highest hight, your lowest low - these things I want to
Know

I wanna know you - like i know myself
I'm waitin' for you - there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby - scream and shout
I want to know you - inside out
I wanna dig down deep - i wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - i wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - i wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - i wanna know oyu inside out
I wanna know your sould - i wanna lose control
C'mon n' let it out - i wanna know you inside out
Ya gotta dig down deep - i wanna lose some slieep
I wanna scream and shout - i wanna know oyu inside out
Tell me everything...

Friday, January 02, 2004

YAY! Had to make some compromises due to expensive taste/budget problem, but finally, as im sure you all want to know.....i've got my boots! :-D

Thursday, January 01, 2004

Happy New Year everyone :-) Hope its a good one.

Been having quite a nice time recently....lots of good movies on tv, reading harry potter instead of course books, seeing my friends... mmm. :-)