note to self: repeatedly headering a football = bruise on forehead.

I think computer viruses should count as life. I think it says something about human nature that the only form of life we have created so far is purely destructive. We've created life in our own image. -Stephen Hawking

The sky here is so clear at night. Not sure i can describe the beauty of the stars.
My skin is still numb from the cold, creeping inwards from the outside.
I thought i was forgetting how to feel...consoling and sympathising, yet refusing to immerse myself, determined to be detached.
But in the absence of night clouds, i'm left in awe.
I haven't captured, and can't release the words. Paint and music fail me.
They draw me away, pull out the tears.

Take what you will or can from my words.
I can't explain the only thing that makes sense to me.

and exhale........
phew. Some peace at last.

(at least for now)

Acoustic #3 - Goo Goo Dolls

They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What’s the point in all this screaming
No one’s listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
’cause she’s got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
’cause the world got in her way
What’s the point ever trying
Nothing’s changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you’re falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What’s the point in all the screaming
You’re not listening anyway

It can be kind of comforting to know that your father is right about something. Even if its about something as stupid as the weather.

On a silent autumn morning in my corner of the world.
A red balloon floated accross the nervous velvet grass.
Under no ones' control but the wind.
A visiting stranger in a beautiful land.
It hung for just a moment, hesitant as to where to go
and then, just like that
it was gone.

slowly, slowly, the feeling slips back.........

Well, I'm finally here......
had a fab freshers week. met muchos people, drunk lots and joined many many societies. (not necessarily in that order though!) obviously can't go to them all but to name a few.....revelations rock gospel choir, art society, football, jiu jitsu, music society.......... :-)
My corridor are all great, really friendly......Only downside is that I've only been here a week and already have 3 essays!! Three! Anyways, it not as if I didn't know what I was letting myself in for........... :-p Have a got a field trip this weekend to.....wait for it.....stone henge! For some reason i find this hilarious but everyone else seems to think its cool :-)
Anyways thats it for now.....connected myself to the internet last night :-D (am almost getting good at this computer larky...!) so i now have ease of access.......mmm :-)

Everybody except my mother has abandoned me!
Well now its my turn....i'm off to uni!
Up until now its just been something i will do one day...like getting married or having a salary paid job. I've even managed to fool myself for this whole year even when i had a place. But there's no putting it off now.My things are packed (nearly) and I'm going.....tomorrow....!!

I love autumn :-) Missed it last year. The tree in my garden has turned bright red. I love watching it at this time of year, when at a certain time of the day the sunlight will catch it and make it glow, like a fire in the green.