Friday, October 28, 2005

wanted to say this eariler but blogger wouldn't let me!

Basically - am feeling a lot better now :) Not sure what changed, but it did so i'm happy!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

I miss him. I miss having a close male friend, that I can talk to anytime and go shopping with and see movies with, and who wants to do the same with me.

The feeling comes and goes, but everytime I see him I realise that I don't can't call him my best friend anymore, and that hurts. I have plenty of friends, and some of them are close ones...but it's not the same.

I think I might watch a funny movie before I go to bed, cheer myself up.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Have now started 3rd year of uni. In an amazing house, it's absolutely huge, with 3 kitchens, 8 bathrooms and 15 people living here. I've finally got a decent kitchen so can do some real cooking now. My room is also unbelievably big. Have settled into it quite nicely though and am generally having a good time :) Only real stress is work which is such a change from last year, I really appreciate my mental peace now.

Have been having lots of random thoughts as ever, but somehow haven't managed to keep them in my head long enough to write them down. I dunno, sometimes it's nice to just let a thought wash over you instead of capturing it in writing. Once you write it down it's bound by your words, somehow it makes me stop thinking about the topic as much once I've written it down - sometimes that's good, sometimes bad, but recently I've decided to just go with the flow and not over analyse.

I think keeping peace of mind is going to be one of my focuses for this term.
I just found this in my drafts section - wrote it a long time ago. I don't think it's finished, but thought I'd give it to you in it's raw form anyway. Be warned, it's cheesy...

A Perfect World:

would allow people to follow their dreams, no matter what their financial situation
would not have people judging each other
would have no religion, but a god that really is good and who does not demand worship.
would have everyone on earth able to have access to the basics of living.
would have people that do not feel the need to destroy.
probably would not have people.