I thought I was at home when I woke up this morning. Then I opened my eyes.
Disappoinment was the only emotion after that. It's not even as if things would be much better at home, it's better to be here so I can keep myself busy and deal with everything.

This just feels like its been such a hard month/3 weeks. I don't know how I'll react if I get another piece of bad news. I've too many emotions to deal with right now.