I've just realised that I've had this blog since I was 19 years old. 19! I can't believe how much I've changed and gone through in 6 years. I have a steady job, a boyfriend, considering buying a house. Am I really a grown up?!

I'm taking an evening class in political philosophy at the moment which I'm really enjoying. I have to write an essay (yay! - no really, I'm excited!) so found myself in the library tonight, taking notes. I felt like a student again - and I loved it!

Man, I'm such a geek.

Do you ever feel like everything is upside down?

I realise I haven't posted on here for quite a while now - I guess I'm just really happy at the moment and don't feel the need for this.

However, I just read this article on the BBC which I think is absolutely amazing. It's something that happens to me every month, yet it never occurred to me that I might see it some day. This might be corny, but the existence of live never ceases to amaze me :)

Been wondering lately - if you're able to swim...what's the problem with rocking the boat?

Hmmm.

I saw Varekai with the Cirque Du Soleil at the Royal Albert Hall yesterday. It left me speechless. I've always wanted to see them ever since I saw them on the Royal Variety Show as a kid, and I can safely say that I was not disappointed. You go from holding your breath out of fear for the performers, to being awestruck at the beauty of it all, to disbelief that the people in front of you are actually doing what their they're doing, to laughing your head off at the funny bits.

Summary: I recommend it!

1. Have updated the post below to include the BBC link.

2. I got my exam results and I got a high merit - WOHOO! Apparently I was just off a distinction, dammit. Not only that, the paper I was saying I might have failed in the post below...is apparently the paper I did better in!! The person giving me my results asked me if I was more quantative that qualitative - which bewildered me! Anyone that knows me knows I am definitely the other way around. So strange. It might be explained by the fact that they adjusted the 1st paper due to the problems there had been with it.

Anyway, I am very happy! Though knowing that I was so close to a distinction now makes me wish I'd done just that little bit better! How things can change overnight eh? :)

The BBC just rang me and said they want to use a picture I submitted on their website tomorrow -YAY! :D

Here's the link! Mine is picture 4.



I've had a lovely weekend, I think the weather has helped but wandered through Regent's Park yesterday and sat down with a book for a bit, then later went to watch some live jazz with friends which was enjoyable. Then today a friend and I sketched at the National Gallery then went to the Chinese New Year celebrations being held in London (which is where the above photo came from).

This was exactly what I needed because I'm getting my exam results tomorrow and there is a distinct possibility that I've failed 1 paper. Now I've never failed an academic exam in my life, and that is one thing which I *do not* want to experience!

This is one of my favourite songs, from one of my favourite movie soundtracks - "Go"

Song For Holly - Esthero

I can make you want me
I can make you think you need me too...
I can reassure you that all your lies you tell yourself are true...

And if you wont let me go
Im just harder to hold, no
Ill never let you gain control, no, no...

Im not myself lately
Im not even sure I know me
But I'm worth more than my name
And all the lies I tell myself are true...

You can try but its never enough with you behind me
Because when push comes to shove, I fall
And its my turn to handle myself now

And if you wont let me go
Im just harder to hold, no
Ill never let you gain control... and you can say you want me...

And if you wont let me go
Im just harder to hold, no
Ill never let you gain control, no, no...

After 2 weeks of recording my peak flow, the doctor told me I have mild asthma today.

Asthma - me?! I grew up watching my brother and dad have asthma, but somehow it never occurred to me that I would develop it. I mean, it really is mild - I just get tightness in my chest sometimes, I've never had a problem breathing. After discussing it with the doctor he (and I) think it's due to pollution, and seeing as I only developed symptoms on moving to London, it seems likely. It was also *really* bad when I was in Delhi, a very polluted place.

Which gives me another reason to dislike London!! (I'm so tempted to rant about London right now, but I'll leave it for another post...which I'm sure will be soon!)

Some people can be SO FUCKING INSENSITIVE. Arrgh!!!

Is my anger coming accross at all? I thought I controlled myself pretty well though. Didn't burst into tears, didn't scream and shout, I just looked at him in disbelief. I think I was more shocked than anything else. Maybe it wasn't that big a thing to him, but it was to me.

Anyway, good thing is that it's motivated me to start karate again!! I know it's not supposed to promote violence, but it's still an excellent way of venting fustration!

(and yes, I will be imagining this guys face when I'm punching the air!)