I'm tired of waiting for my life to start...but wide awake at this moment of time. Just can't sleep, keep thinking about earlier.

Ps. Also been thinking lately...people say things to me all the time, nice and kind things, but for some reason I only really start to believe people when they act on what they say...when the behaviour matches the words. It's through experience I guess but I don't want to become cynical.

Just wanted to note that for myself. I'm not a naturally cynical person and I don't want to be...need to make a conscious effort to be otherwise. Somehow....